Life happened…and continues to happen. I always thought when I truly surrendered my life to Christ that Jesus would always be #1 in my life. I wouldn’t allow life to get in the way and detour me from my calling until Satan started to use the very blessings that God gave me over this last year to bring Jesus down to #2.
This last 2 years have been the best years of my life. I met my now husband on Eharmony and quickly fell in love. After waiting for several years for the right man to come along, God blessed me with my husband today. Since then, we have married and are soon expecting our first child. We have also found our dream home and moved. It’s been a whirlwind of blessings from God and I couldn’t be happier, or could I be?
Over the last couple of months I have slowly started to feel an emptiness inside me; a void that I haven’t felt in quite some time and I couldn’t quite pinpoint it, until today. At first I thought it was just me being sick from my first trimester of pregnancy, but it wasn’t. I have been so consumed with being happy and so full of joy that I forgot to have a real relationship with Christ. Relationships take effort and I was not putting in my effort at all. I got wrapped up in trying to be a good wife, working full-time and continuing my relationships outside my marriage all while forgetting the one thing that I needed to have 1st on my list. I still praised and thanked God for every blessing, went to church, and even went to bible study, but I was just going through the motions because my real priority and desire in my life was my husband and maintaining a household. Well at least trying to maintain a household, still working on that one…
It was easy maintaining God as my #1 priority when I was single, but it was much harder when I got married and tried to find that balance. Life happened to me in the best way possible, and I let my relationship with Jesus fall through the cracks. For the first time in a long time I sat down and did my devotionals and dove into the word. There is where I found my heart to be filled to the top erasing the feeling of emptiness that I was starting to have. It goes to show that you can have everything you want in this life and can still be empty when you don’t have Jesus.
As I sit here writing this my heart is genuine with praise and thanks to Jesus for continuing to be there even when I said thank you for the blessings and then left Him behind. So as I start to ask myself and Jesus what he wants to call me to next, I hear Him whispering in my ear a verse that I have always loved.
Be Still and know that I am God. – Psalms 46:10
It’s time for me to get back on my schedule of making Jesus # 1, spending time in the word daily, and praying fervently. It’s time for me to do a 180 degree turn towards Christ and ask him to REVIVE my heart. It’s time for a revival and I can’t wait for God to lead me and you in the right direction.
How are you doing today? It’s the beginning of 2017 and everyone has their goals that they are trying to reach. Are you trying to fill the void with things of this world, or are you trying to fill it with Jesus? It’s not just time for a revival in my heart, but a REVIVAL in everyone’s hearts. Let’s pray for God to return a burning desire in our hearts to follow Him and for our relationship with Him to grow deeper. My word for 2017 is REVIVAL. What is yours?
Will you not revive us again, that your people may rejoice in you? – Psalm 85:6