Can I be honest with you?

Can I be honest with you?  This past week I’ve been pretty irritable.  I can’t tell you why.  Nothing happened.  Nobody upset me.  I was just plain irritable for no apparent reason.  I think I played it off for the most part to the world.  But at home, where it’s safe, I don’t think I hid it well.  I never addressed it in my quiet time with God, because there was no reason for the irritableness.  So I just remained irritable thinking this too shall pass. 

During this time, I’ve been praying to God to give me what HE wants me to write about next for this blog. He’s been very quiet in this regard.  So I leaned on my go to verse “Be Still and Know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10) and just waited for His guidance.  Then today in my quiet time I came across this verse:

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.” – 1 John 5:14

I dug into this verse a little deeper in my commentaries.  One of them mentioned that our hearts had to be right with God and then our prayers would be a mirror vision of His will. So I sat and asked myself was my heart right with God?  Was something keeping my prayers from being heard?  Was there sin I wasn’t acknowledging?  Was I being unforgiving towards others?  Then bam, just at that moment, the question of the day – was my irritability keeping me apart from God?  Do I need to ask for forgiveness and acknowledge this sin?  Why hadn’t I thought about this sooner?

Well, just yesterday I acknowledged my irritability to my husband and apologized to him.   I was honest with him and told him that I really didn’t know why I was irritable but he surely was not the reason.  Bless his heart, he immediately said “no problem” in the most loving and tender way.  But I know it was a problem.  I wasn’t being nice and it was not ok. I knew that just acknowledging it to him would help me be more mindful and thoughtful towards him.  It was pulling my sin out of the darkness and bringing it into the light.

“to open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to God, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me.” – Acts 26:18

Today I woke up and was not irritable.  In fact, I was in a great mood – almost silly.  It’s no surprise the verse that stuck out to me today was that “if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.” According to His will.  If your heart is right with God – it will be according to His will.  If you are in God’s word regularly – it will be according to His will.  If your sin is not in the dark and in the light, acknowledged and confessed – it will be according to His will. 

And just like that, this blog appeared. 

Father, thank you for this lesson.  Thank you for your unconditional love for us.  Thank you for hearing our prayers.  Bring to light of what is holding us back from you as we continue to grow with you. Show us how to restore our relationship with you and have the relationship you so desire from us.  I ask this confidently and with expectation that you hear this prayer.                                                                                                                                                                                        In Jesus Name I Pray.  Amen.